I just realized why I hate #remoteworking when everyone around me seems to love it: it fucks with my #AuDHD #masking.
I didn't realize until I was forced to WFH in 2020 just how much I rely on #bodydoubling to function: everything from assessing how hard I'm supposed to be working based on the people around me, to remembering to each lunch. I'm much better at conversation IRL - being on the phone constantly with people whose lips I can't see messes with my #auditoryprocessing, which makes me more socially anxious, which makes it harder to focus and retain information. It threw off the daily routine I was precariously managing. I can't just copy the emotional reactions of everyone around me = I don't know what the "appropriate" emotional reactions are for situations = I just default to constant anxiety.
I feel bad because so many #neurodivergent folks really prefer #WFH but I selfishly want y'all to come back to the office so I can unfuck my life
Am I alone here, @actuallyautistic ?